I'M PREGNANT!

I wish I had started this blog when I had just discovered my pregnancy, there was so much to talk about. Too much to write retrospectively. 

To give some background into our world. Boyf and I do not have the most traditional of relationships. We hadn’t been together very long, we didn’t live together and he hadn’t yet met my family. Blah blah blah... none of this matters of course. We were and are very much in love. Yes, we were the subject of small minded gossip for a while, but neither of us cared. We were happy and bringing a new life into the world and that is the most beautiful and blessed thing that can happen.

This is a true story about when I realised I was preggers. I was living in the City and as usual on a Saturday morning I walked to my gym for a work out. I was on the treadmill listening to Kings Of Leon on my Ipod, when the song 'Knocked Up' came on. I listened to the lyrics as I worked out my dates and literally thought.... Oh shit. I'm Pregnant!

Staying at the boyf's that night, I stopped off at the chemist to add a test to my overnight bag. 

Sunday morning I sneaked into the bathroom without saying a word, and pee'd on my stick. I thought I was seeing things as two purple lines appeared. Is that one line or two? definitely one. It's very light though. Oh it's getting darker. and there is something in the second window. Is it a line? maybe a bit of the dye has run. I'll turn it over and wait while I wash my hands and get cleaned up....

30 Seconds later....okay, let see. Oh god. Two. Dark. Lines......  And the peanut was saying hello to the world. 

The Boyf was over the moon with the news. We were going to a VW show that afternoon with a group of friends. After the initial shock sunk in, we decided to go. Of course we didn't say anything to our friends but we did share many knowing glances to each other throughout the day.

There was so much to talk about, so much to sort out, but for now we were safe in our romantic notion that we had a secret. we had a peanut. Everything else could wait until tomorrow.... 

Read my blog!!!

So now I have my blog I'm desperate for someone to read it. Otherwise whats the point??

I'v had at least two readers I'm aware of. I became so excited when I looked at Mother Earth this afternoon and saw it had been 'hit' 22 times. Then I realised that every time I looked at it, it was a 'Hit' Doh!

Boyf came home from work, and I ran to the door like an excited puppy... "I got my blog up, come and see, come and see." Que. crying baby, bath, feed, bed. Our dinner and sit down to relax. Boyf tells me all about his day at work, the whole time I'm dying to interrupt him "My blog, my blog, my blog." Finally Grand designs comes on and Boyf shuts up about his day..."blog, blog, blog". It's too late, I've lost him, he's too busy listening to McCloud the blog will have to wait, and so will my third reader.

I've been thinking about the format and realised I'm going to have to blog retrospectively about lot's of things. There were so many anecdotes from my pregnancy, but I have forgotten most. I'll try to get something written down from past, present and future (daydreams) so that readers 1, 2 and eventually 3 can enjoy....

And so it begins....

So here it is... my first blog.

I'm new at this game, and I don't really know the rules or what is expected of me, or if anyone will ever view this! But here we go..

When I was at high school, I attended a Parents evening when I was about 14 years old. My Science teacher Mr Thompson (Tommo to us - he was cool) sat down my mother and father and said,
"Ceri's brain is like a Ferrari.... But she uses it like a Mini."
This was a complement...no?

So for the past 12 months my Ferrari brain has been in overload. I have been through the biggest transition in my life, it's something that most new mothers can probably relate to ... what is amazing is that it doesn't stop there.

Everyday I learn or experience something new. Most people probably do, but what amazes me is that my whole outlook on life has been altered. Im sure that this nurturing instinct has always been there, somewhere inside me, lying dormant for this moment... then POW! A mother is born.

So I digress, this is my blog. it's a place for me to drive my ferrari, experiment with poetry and words, and tell the world my story. My outlet. Please enjoy ........